I am trying to figure out what I am doing here.

This is not the home that I am used to.

I had a girlfriend for the past seven months roughly.
Her name was Kadyleigh and I thought she was amazing. She saved me from the monsters inside of me whenever I was younger. The other day she kissed her ex-girlfriend. Then she gets mad at me for saying we would talk about it later. I thought I loved her more than anything and everything, and that we would be together forever. We were going to meet in New York for my birthday in December. Now I am just too unsure of where this is all going. In a way, it is almost as if I just lost a big part of my life. And that is the most scary thought I've ever had-- and I have been known to think too much.