everything is lost and i don't know where it is

I am so tired, and I really can't wait until it is time to go to bed. I know by then, though, I will probably be wide awake and so it will not be easy to sleep. Currently, I am about to check my grades. I'm a bit worried, because I failed a chemistry worksheet pretty badly. Apparently I never learned how to round numbers. I know that I am probably going to fail the test, but that is just how life works.

I checked. It was actually a decent grade overall. According to my teacher, the computer wouldn't let her enter my grades though because I missed Tuesday. It's not my fault the school's attendance program is stupid, and they should figure out a more effective way of counting people present/absent. Whatever, though. I am just hoping the rest of this school year goes by fast. I hope next year is so much better.

The reason why I missed school Tuesday was because my tooth was hurting very badly. It is because supposedly there was a bit of trauma inflicted on my tooth, which gave me an infection in the root canal. So needless to say, the infection is in my blood stream, I'm taking antibiotics, and next Thursday I have to get a root canal and a crown. I get to be anesthetized, which is both exhilarating and worrisome. I am just always worried that I will die while they are working on my tooth.

I still haven't worked on my book. I want to so badly, but I just can't think of how to start it. So I have been doing so many other things. I hung up sixteen paper cranes in my ceiling, I created a wall of quotes, and I have read and read and read but I just can't write. I hate that about myself. I get these wonderful ideas and then never follow through with them. Somebody should try and wire my brain to fix that. Oh well.