we all want to be big stars, but we don't know how

This week has been colorful, I think. Thursday was our last day before the AP European History exam. I forgot my stuff at home and my mom brought it, and it was weird. We watched a video on the fall of communism, ate starbursts and chips, and drank those little juices in the barrel looking things. Some of us went bowling after, and we were going to play against the juniors. About twenty of us showed up, and only four juniors. I got a spare my first time, but after that I sucked. Everybody cheered when I got the spare, though, and it made me really happy. I think a lot has changed sicne the beginning of the year, and these people have really warmed up to me. It makes me feel like I belong, even though I still am an outsider.

Sometimes when I wake up, I want to go back to sleep and not wake up again. Yesterday was kind of one of those days, because I wish that I could just put everything on hold. I woke up, watched television in my mom's room, and then went to Panera Bread or whatever. I met my classmates there, because we'd scheduled it before our test. It was fun, but I wish that we didn't have to take the test because I felt so nauseous, but we left after about an hour. We all followed each other, most of the other kids driving themselves. Whatever. I don't think I would have driven myself to that test, because I was feeling so weird.

When we all got there, we were told we had to wait outside. We had to be "invited" in. XD We had to show Mr. Dodson our ID tags if he didn't recognize us, and I laughed because I have bright red hair in mine. It looks so weird, seeing myself from just about eight months ago and looking so weird. We talked about the test, Ireland, spiders, Mr. Dodson's bike, and just so many things. We took a lot of pictures, and I can't wait to see them. Most people had on their shirts we made, but I didn't feel like wearing mine. Oh well.

The test was actually not that hard. I just kind of kept second guessing myself, and I think I failed the essays. I didn't "analyze" much. I just rambled because I was tired and it was almost four o'clock and I was supposed to be home already. But it was okay. When we finished, Ms. Gentry had creamcicles or whatever they're called, the orange popcicles with the cream in them. Then I went home, and my mom realized she had to take me to a play at seven for my grade.

Crispy, her boyfriend, this one couple, and this boy David were there. We got bored and ran across the road to get pizza. There was a drunk guy, and Levi pointed at him and we all thought we were going to get killed. We played the little pinball type thing with bouncy balls in it, and we wanted to keep playing it but then we left. We ate in front of the school, and it was a really weird time but it was great at the same time. Then my parents came and I had to go, and I wish that it didn't end.