This week has been a crazy week that has made me feel both dead and alive, and sometimes even a mixture of the two at the same time. I guess I should be chronological about this.

Sunday: Well honestly, I don't remember Sunday. It was just a day.

Monday: I realized I was in like with my friend Catherine. She is pretty amazing, and I know it would just be a high school thing, but I've never had a true high school relationship.

Tuesday: I almost told Catherine I liked her, and I went to Club Nowhere after school. Tynan(ty) told Catherine that I liked her. Before that, I got the third degree from him.

Wednesday: Chris found out I liked Catherine. I got sick feeling, and went home early. Before sleeping I amost broke up with Kady.

Thursday: This is now. Catherine was not there. Tynan, me, and this girl whose name I can't think of at the moment were talking about how me and Kady wouldn't work out in the end. I ended up breaking up with her in text message. I felt bad, but it had to be done. After school I went to Club Nowhere, and I got Catherine's number from Tynan. CrispyRabbit and Levi were at Club Nowhere. I got called pretty!

Afterthoughts: It seems like the only reason why I broke up with Kady is because of this girl Catherine. The truth is, the two things were just placed at the same time in my crazy little world. I've been feeling like it is no longer a good idea to be with Kady for about a month now, and I really didn't want to play some little charade any longer because it wasn't doing anybody good. Besides, it's not like I even know how to kiss yet? So, I think it's only fair I live like a normal teenager for once in my life. I am glad to be able to live in the moment. I am glad I have great friends like CrispyRabbit and her boyfriend Levi. And of course my best California boy. You are amazing, and don't ever let that part of you pass you by.